I quite enjoy the season of Fall, of which we are approaching. For me, it's Spring without the tornadoes.
What more could you ask for?
As in an introvert, I gain energy from spending quiet time with myself. Doesn't have to be in my room, but I need my good hour from my day, where I spend time by myself. IT can studying, writing, even browsing the internet. However, this does not mean I am addicted to inside or succumb to laziness. Quite the opposite.
As long as I am by myself, work is what cheers me and actually has made me a happier person. Sitting around all day (for anyone) can't be good for you. We were made to get out and leave our parent's abode at some point. How do you think families were made?
We don't necessarily have to close our selves off from our loved ones; quite the opposite actually. It proves us even stronger when we maintain our relationships even away from home.
You're probably asking, "Where is this going, and when will this end."
My sister recently joined the convent.
I guess the family is taking it well, but distancing myself has become a safe house I am well accustomed to using. When I was apart of a relationship that was in no way reflecting God, I reacted by immediately breaking up. Of course, not after things escalated and other people were hurt in the process, but in the end I distanced myself from people and became addicted to movies in an attempt to forget everything that had happened.
I gain energy away from people, but does that include God?
I'm not mad at my sister, but strangely have been at peace. It took my a while to figure out why.
IT was strange for me because I haven't been this peaceful in a while. People, I am a worrier to the tenth degree, but my sister, my best friend, my confirmation sponsor, left, and I was at peace. I finally realized that the two year bumpy relationship that I'd had with God had been reconciled. I realized, that the supposed safe house I had built around myself had not only distanced my from other people, but had also distanced me from Him.
When I was at my low in faith, He offered peace to my sister. And in turn, I also received peace.
If my number one fan can trust her life so fully to God, who am I to say that he doesn't exist? That I can't focus more in mass. That I can't pray maybe once or twice more in my day. That I can't thank him for the sky when it's blue.
Fall is my favorite time year, full of leaves tinted by God's paintbrush. So I am happy. Why spend my precious introverted moments alone, when I could spend them with God?
Bless you all,
Gwen
I know its weird, but I guess that how we know it was the right decision. I went through that also some of that, peace and yes while I miss my friend , and I felt bad for you as my friend also. I have been talking to God so much more and I also have so much more peace about her decision (after the initial shock, since I had no idea she had been considering) (not to mention the couple of pints of ice cream and the box of tissues) Its so amazing how God can take something that normally I would look at as the glass is half empty and yet I see it as half full instead.
ReplyDeletethough I have done the opposite, I have wanted to be around people more (after that last bite of ice cream) and I think I am approaching an extrovert. And you are much stronger than I am, I was apart of a friendship that didn't honor God unitl things were so bad my family was begging me to back off and this person was affecting every area of my life. I could have handled it better also and without knowing all the details there I do know that sometimes ripping off the band aid is the only option.
don't stay hiding in your room to long , remember we have cookies out here
~lizzie
PS is there a award for longest comment ever????? if so I would gladly accept a nomination
I will also continue praying for you and your family peace.
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